Saturday, August 8, 2009
Seeing or Hearing
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Don't Tell Me What To Do!
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Following Verses Leading
Sunday, July 5, 2009
Self-Love: Science verses Religion
The issue with loving yourself is that religion tells us it’s arrogant to do so, and science tells us it’s impossible. Of course, they’re both wrong.
The greatest forbidden fruit hanging from the Tree of Life is me. I was the last person on earth I was attracted to. Physically I wasn’t my type; emotionally I saw through myself, but only so far as to see down to the layer of insincerity.; and spiritually I had no opinion one way or the other.
Just from the point of view of an observer of life, the analytical side of me could see no value in loving myself when no one else was doing it. In the natural world there are no indications of self-regard and self-esteem reaching to the level of self-love. And amongst my own species (humans) most consider the idea a joke.
But I postulate that without self-love my life has no meaning. I was born alone; I’ll die alone. And everything else in between is a series of experiences that either teaches me about the world, or it teach me about my world. And that depends entirely on me. Most people I meet are consumed with the world around them. Even if they’re not frantic about their survival issues, their passions are usually about something. And even when their passion is about someone, it’s never themselves.
Of course I’ve met exceptions to that rule, but those I’ve met who are consumed with themselves have always exhibited extreme examples of vanity, worry or preoccupation. I’ve never met someone who loved himself in a healthy way. Granted, I’ve met people who’ve exhibited loving traits that have demonstrated to me how deeply they believe in certain values, but I’ve never met anyone who quite talked about self-love the way I do.
Never was there a truer adage than, “You can’t take it with you.” And still we see so many people consumed with material acquisition. There are even those who collect people like Christmas ornaments they display with great affection at a certain time of the year. And they, too, need to be reminded that people aren’t ornaments. You can’t take them with you.
So what can you take with you? I think that’s a question that needs to be asked, and I’m open to both scientific and religious answers. But I’ve looked closely at all the usual answers from both camps, and I have to say I’m not impressed with any of their answers. Science treats me like an object with no inherent meaning. And religion treats me like a pawn in a game of their own choosing. I’m not willing to play along with either.
I see myself as a “subject,” rather than an object. And I’m the most fascinating subject I’ve ever encountered. Nowhere else on earth offers me the possibilities of exploration and frontier that I find within. Learning about myself is fascinating. I’m deeper than the oceans. My dreams are higher than the sky. And my need for grounding is more real than the earth beneath my feet. I am a world in a world. And when I leave this world I fully expect to find myself still in the world within I’m coming to love with such devotion.
Thursday, June 25, 2009
The Curious Case of Benjamin Button and Self-Love
"Slumdog Millionaire" and Self-Love
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Humiliation and Self-Love
Self-love is a feeling about myself. It isn't a thought; it isn't a New Year's resolution I make and break. Self-love is a way life, something that comes from the heart, not the head. And one of the most difficult feelings for the heart to process is the feeling of humiliation. Humiliation, like all feelings, can be triggered by others, but it then moves through me independent of the trigger that caused it.
The concept of my book, The Wisdom of Self-Love, is that life is a school in which I'm learning to love myself and, in so doing, feel all the feelings that move through me. And if life is a school I can’t ask for a refund on the emotional cost of my education just because I don’t like my curriculum. I tried staring out the window, ignoring the lessons at hand; I tried playing hooky; I tried getting bad grades for fear of going on to harder classes; I even tried graduating before I had all my credits. But I discovered I can’t complain to the world that I’ve overpaid on life's tuition. Nobody’s gives a damn...
Self-love, like an education, is a tightrope that's much harder than it looks. I can feel afraid of falling; I can refuse to take the steps necessary toward loving myself; I can fall and swear I can’t get up. But there will always be clowns sent in to this three-ring circus I find myself in. That I've already experienced and now know for a fact.
The clowns around me laugh at me when I fall. Even the clowns within try to distract me from myself when the feelings are deeply uncomfortable. But I know how much pain I'm really in; I know that inside when I'm bleeding.
The clowns within are the bullies that laugh when I'm down, but they also help me admit that I'm deeply angry with myself. I can’t stop them for trying to distract me from the pain of being me. But what I can do is feel the unintended emotional consequences of their good intentions honestly.
And when I'm through my anger at being me and can feel finally sad; when I can feel sorry for myself at having to experience such pain; when I can admit that I’ve humiliated myself in front of myself; when I can admit that life can sometimes be a humiliating process that makes me feel sorry and small despite my best intentions; when I can cry for that poor soul within bleeding from having lost his balance. Then I can continue on to lifelong spiritual learning about myself without anymore fear.
Only those who have been through life’s classes in the pain of humiliation can move on to the next class: grace. It takes honesty to be graceful, and it takes grace to be honest with myself. This is the essence of the wisdom of self-love.